Whenever I listen to music, I run the risk of engaging in a very painful, very frustrating, and very emotionally hellish battle. I am unable to simply listen to music. I am often drawn into a song’s orbit, and if I’m lucky, I can escape the tractor-beam hold it has on me.
Sometimes, though, I don’t want to do that.
Sometimes, I let the song win. But I let it win with great hesitance, as I know that its hold on my soul might engulf me for longer than is necessary.
Let me clarify a point: when I say “longer than is necessary,” we’re not talking about one repeated listen, or two, or five, or ten. We’re talking hours. We’re talking immense, intense listening, with me hitting PLAY automatically for an indefinite, undetermined period of time, until something inside me has had enough.
To fully comprehend the seriousness of that last paragraph, let’s take a look at several examples from the past few months:
“Voices Carry,” by ‘Til Tuesday. 23 listens.
That’s nearly three hours with Aimee Mann, and that’s nearly three hours within the confines of an emotionally abusive relationship. Yikes!